I have a confession to make.
Joey was bigger at birth, bigger and taller than most of her peers in her 4 years of life so far, and so I’ve always thought, consciously or subconsciously, that she is a big girl who can take care of herself. The moment she hit 1 year old, I brought her to the dustbin and dropped her pacifier in, telling her as a matter-of-fact that big girls don’t take pacifiers. I also let her start eating her porridge and drinking soups by herself, because I felt she was big enough to feed herself.
But when it’s Baby Jayne’s turn, I reacted to her differently. She was much smaller at birth, and even at more than 18 months, looks smaller than many of my friends’ babies who’re barely one year old. She’s very petite and in my eyes, always a very small baby. In my mind, I keep thinking that she’s still so small that she cannot understand what I’m saying, or handle the pressures of life (like giving up the pacifier), which is why she is still super obsessed with her pacifier even now. At every mealtime, I faithfully feed her spoonful by spoonful, and the thought of letting her feed herself didn’t even remotely pass through my mind.
But didn’t I let Joey feed herself when she was one year old? Why do it so differently with Baby Jayne? Why was I acting over protective?!
I think the small size deluded me. I have to shake away this wrong thinking that she is still a baby. The truth is, she will be reaching 2 years old in 5 months’ time!! No longer a baby, if you ask me!
That truth suddenly hit me when during one mealtime, Baby Jayne kept trying to snatch her spoon away from me, wanting to feed herself. I got so frustrated grabbing the spoon back from her that I just let her feed herself. I was prepared to wipe off all the porridge from the floor, high-chair and her clothes. I thought no harm letting her play for a while.
Surprisingly, Baby Jayne did not spill that much porridge on the floor, or the high-chair, or anywhere else. In fact, even though the angle at which she puts the spoon into her mouth needs to get better, she managed to put most of the porridge into her mouth and almost finished the whole bowl of porridge! I have to say, she was very pleased with herself, and so was I!
Then, it hit me that yes, she was ready to feed herself, and I should stop acting like a silly mum, fussing over her constantly. Looks like…. my younger girl… is… is… is.. growing up too!!!



I observed how she actually put the spoon of porridge into her mouth, and although she could do it much better (as in get more porridge into her mouth each time), I think she can figure it out herself. Plus, that’s a motor skill that will improve with every try.



Although I wish my kid will grow up slowly so that I can enjoy their childhood more, but I am also reminded that whether I like it or not, they grow up anyway. Even though I have not taught her how to feed herself, her desire to be independent will propel her to make that move herself!
